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Mood of the day: Vulnerable - The Autobiography of Russell
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zimzat
zimzat
Mood of the day: Vulnerable
No sudden moves. Today I feel vulnerable. Is that even a valid mood?

I got scolded by another dev for jokingly asking if 'they' would kill me for using my login on someone elses comp for even a minute. I chickened out on asking to sit with someone during lunch (he did just drop dipping sauce on the floor...) and am very disappointed in myself. I'm concerned about interactions with the new guy who started today (making a good impression, scaring him away with "the gay", etc).

Current Location: USA, Alpharetta, GA 30005
Current Mood: vulnerable

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From: anarchomo Date: October 18th, 2010 05:19 pm (UTC) (Link)
*approaches slowly keeping hands in sight*

It's ok, we all have moments like this in getting used to a new environment. It takes some time to learn what offends whom, who can handle teh ghey, who's nice to have lunch with. There are always some false starts and missed opportunities. Par for the course.
zimzat From: zimzat Date: October 18th, 2010 10:28 pm (UTC) (Link)
I've been here a week and this is the first I've felt like this. Something about today has left me off-kilter. Whatever it is has affected my coding ability and confidence.

I don't think it's that it's a new environment. Maybe something about thinking about pushing those boundaries... doing something more than I'm used to when it comes to social interactions. *shrug*

Here's to hoping tomorrow will be better.
From: anarchomo Date: October 19th, 2010 01:51 am (UTC) (Link)
Hope so, too.
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