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The Autobiography of Russell
Life from a different perspective
Midnight dream, with lots of spices added
That was one weird dream. And dang it if I didn't recognize elements of people I know of.

It mainly revolved around this one guy, shorter than I am. He had 'full' hair, but not long. I don't know how we met, but apparently there was interest between the two of us.

Near the beginning of the dream we were trotting on horses backwards, as in we were facing away from the horse's head and they were going in the direction we were facing. We were going to a small library somewhere. Once there, he wanted to mate our horses. He got his stud revved up and the thing tried to mount my mare right there in the library. We stopped them and tried to take them outside to continue that but, I'm not exactly sure anymore, came up with 'performance issues' with one of the horses. The horses pretty much disappeared after that.

Some time later we were back at my house, although it didn't really look like 'my' house, just felt like it was my house. We were playing around in the... kitchen(?) just having a good time eating, joking, and having fun. Eventually it got to the point where we went to a seperate adjacent room, closed all the doors, and laid down on a blanket. We cuddled together with all of our cloths on except shirts.

Then my mom appears and I get annoyed. She says something like "You know what I don't like?" but I missed what she said. The guy tries to make a come back at her and she starts rambling off on some demented course about the Nazis and homosexuals. I'm trying to get her to just leave and him to ignore her. He's breaking down now, and it's pretty much gone. He gets up, on the brink of tears, and says "You know what you hate?" (I think), and after a moment of silence he barely whispers "G.S.A." then runs off. I get up myself and tell my mom "Now look what you did!" and try to chase after him. Sadly, I don't catch up to him. I'm always getting as close as across the room, yard, or street before he disappears 'just around the corner'.

One of the odd places I chased him was through a chicken coop, with chickens seperated on different sides of the fence for seemingly no reason. I had to climb over the middle chicken wire fence, and watched him disappear around the corner as I attempted to jump over but couldn't. It's haunting me that he looked back to where I was with this sad, apologetic look and was just like 'sorry' then disappeared.

[Edit: At the end of the dream, just as he disappeared one last time and I felt myself waking up, I realized it was a dream and I could bring him back if I wanted to. I started to, but I couldn't because I knew it wouldn't be right. *sigh*]

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mrtrblmkr1 From: mrtrblmkr1 Date: May 17th, 2004 03:12 am (UTC) (Link)
What do you possibly think it means?
zimzat From: zimzat Date: May 17th, 2004 03:24 am (UTC) (Link)
I'm not really sure.

It could be taken literally, and mean I'll always lose guys when they meet my family and there's nothing I can do about it, or it could be some interpretation of what happened with Matt and myself.

I really have no idea.
mrtrblmkr1 From: mrtrblmkr1 Date: May 17th, 2004 04:48 am (UTC) (Link)
actually, if we actually did meet, which would
probably be in 2 years, i would not run away from
you even having after meeting with your family.
but one thing, we can meet mine... they nearly
filed for your arrest...
zimzat From: zimzat Date: May 17th, 2004 10:03 pm (UTC) (Link)
I remember something about that, yes. Not that they could've filed any charges that would've stuck.
From: daniele160 Date: May 18th, 2004 06:40 am (UTC) (Link)
Weird dream.

What I'm just itching to know is what the hell you did to make his parents want to file charges against you????
zimzat From: zimzat Date: May 18th, 2004 07:08 am (UTC) (Link)
He lives in New York. I live in Louisiana. We were 'dating' for a while. His parents are the homophobic type and thought I was stalking him or something. I don't remember the details so you'd have to ask him directly.
faelaine From: faelaine Date: May 18th, 2004 06:42 pm (UTC) (Link)
Hey... I know you dont know me... But i was just rummaging through LJ users... and I wanted to say hello and that I really like your icon... err... yea... even tho i'm a chick....
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