I'm being pushed all over the board, and none of it is really where I want to go. Problem is, I don't know where I want to go. I just know it's not where I'm going.
To be told I'm not old enough, smart enough, strong enough, or just good enough seems to me like I'm stupid, immature, weak, and horrible. (yes, all at once)
It's like being rejected. Cause that's what I am. A reject. I'm not retarded. I'm just a reject. Something made out of the mold in a place where I have no use.
This is doing nothing to help me, and most likely anything you say will do nothing to help either.