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The Autobiography of Russell
Life from a different perspective
stuff... (run while you can)
*sigh* I don't like how I feel lately. resigned. undeserving. like I will never get anything I want.

I'm being pushed all over the board, and none of it is really where I want to go. Problem is, I don't know where I want to go. I just know it's not where I'm going.

To be told I'm not old enough, smart enough, strong enough, or just good enough seems to me like I'm stupid, immature, weak, and horrible. (yes, all at once)

It's like being rejected. Cause that's what I am. A reject. I'm not retarded. I'm just a reject. Something made out of the mold in a place where I have no use.

This is doing nothing to help me, and most likely anything you say will do nothing to help either.

Current Mood: depressed depressed
Current Music: "Stand By Your Side" by Celine Dion

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scixual From: scixual Date: May 26th, 2004 05:53 pm (UTC) (Link)
You create your world. We all do.

Right now, you are creating the "Everything happens to me and nothing is going to help" world.

Not right or wrong, but it doesn't sound like a world you are enjoying.

Think of times when you were happy. What was the world like then? You created that, too.

What world would have you happy, inspired, growing? You can create that as well.

The answer is simple -- not necessarily easy. But the first step is to take responsibility for your mood, for no one on the planet has the power to create your mood but you.

Choose to be powerful, and you are.
From: turambar_h Date: May 27th, 2004 06:12 am (UTC) (Link)
Dude, you're not rejected.
We at IK and XC all think you're great. We wouldn't know what to do without you.
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