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The Autobiography of Russell
Life from a different perspective
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"You should eat more" "You don't think I know that?!"
"What is your favorite food?" *thinks* "I don't have any." "Sure you do. What do you like to eat?" "I don't like to eat. In order to have a favorite food you have to like eating something, but I don't like to eat anything."
"You complained so much about being cramped I thought you'd like the window seat." "I only complained when we first started off and I never mentioned it again since then."
Just about everyone tells me the first one. My sister said the second one. My brother said the last one.
I know I'm starving, but I still don't feel like eating. At this rate I'm better off starving to death then being around people.

Just... I wish people would stop telling me what I should do.
It's like "No Duh Sherlock!"

The more people tell me I have to change the more I want to stop trying... or stop wanting to change.
When people tell me I'm worth something, I don't believe them at all. Not even one little iota of belief. All I feel is that they're just trying to justify ... something.
No, that isn't it.
All I feel is I don't deserve it. It's hollow...

Current Mood: disappointed disappointed
Current Music: *off 'cause mom didn't like it*

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From: darthen Date: July 5th, 2004 02:41 pm (UTC) (Link)
Hmmm... I've found somewhere a lil' scenery that I think could make you think... Let's say that I hands you a sharp, sharp knife. And then, I say this:

"I know how you feel. Not fititng in, and all. You have two options. Either you cut a part of yourself. Either you cut a part of the world."

The knife is for cutting yourself. Yourself is for 'cutting' the world.
I believe in you. Why? Because you can do stuff I couldn't even dream about doing. That's why. I admire you.
zimzat From: zimzat Date: July 5th, 2004 03:26 pm (UTC) (Link)
What, you want me to start chain-sawing the world? I don't think they'd appreciate that. In fact, they'd probably hunt me down and put me in jail, if I got that lucky after getting shot at by over-zealous authority officals.

Somehow I doubt that's what you'd say, as you'd probably start talking in French (or whichever is your native language) in an attempt to explain what you're saying.

Just because I can do things doesn't mean I do them. If you have a machine that can clean the air of all polution but it is never turned on, is it really worth anything?
From: darthen Date: July 5th, 2004 03:30 pm (UTC) (Link)
Not chain-sawing. But digging enough space for you to fit in.

And the machine is still thre, dormant, yes, but it exists. Having the ability to create such a machine is already a start.

And the word in French I was trying to translate was 'raboter'. :P
zimzat From: zimzat Date: July 5th, 2004 08:04 pm (UTC) (Link)
Digging with a knife, or even a chain-saw, is hard... It would be so much easier if I had a backhoe or even a shovel.

If it's never used then what good is it? It has no value when it remains forever dormant. *nods* The concept is there has to be some intention of use at some point in time for it to be worth anything, but if it isn't then it's just a bunch of scraps.

*looks in dictionary.com for the definition of that word* Uhh, it's not there. Are you sure you have the right word?
From: darthen Date: July 5th, 2004 08:56 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yep. Correct tool to be found first! :P

Ah, well. It can be activated, though. So it means it is able to work. And that you can create others. ^^

Aye-up, I'm sure. :}
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