November 19th, 2003

Ctrl+Alt+Del - Scott & Ted

I'm so ticked right now. At everyone.

I'm so ticked right now. At everyone. Even people I don't know.

I watch people talking, so obliviously. It's as if they don't care about anything. I watch them in their happy lives. They have so many things yet they complain about not having enough. I see them having deep connections with those around them, in ways I have none. I want to be happy. I want to actually feel connected with someone. It doesn't have to be on a bf/bf level but that does seem to be the only level I could possibly find it. I'm jealous of other people.

It hurts. It really does.

And then my brother is coming down today, and soon enough he'll know about my problems. I don't like showing my problems. I seem to be the only one who shows their problems and I feel so weak because of it.

:-( *on the brink of tears* (which, in case you don't know, is so very rare for me)
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