May 26th, 2004

Guys Cuddling on Couch

No napkins today

Z Zonked
I Important
M Misunderstood
Z Zonked
A Ambitious
T Tender

Ooo... I did ticket taking today. It's a useless job but I guess someone has to do it. Seriously, the turnstyle people could make sure no one gets in that hasn't paid.

I talked to Mrs. Kathy again today (sheesh, this is becoming a habit) and told her I would be leaving soon and wanted to know if it would be better for her if I left after this week or next. She said next, so I said ok. My last day is supposidly the 6th of June now. I kind of wanted to work next week anyway, as that is the end of the second pay period anyway. I thought really hard about retracting that second week so I could have some time to take care of some other things, but I guess I can take care of them anyway.

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  • Current Music
Tombo - Disappointed

stuff... (run while you can)

*sigh* I don't like how I feel lately. resigned. undeserving. like I will never get anything I want.

I'm being pushed all over the board, and none of it is really where I want to go. Problem is, I don't know where I want to go. I just know it's not where I'm going.

To be told I'm not old enough, smart enough, strong enough, or just good enough seems to me like I'm stupid, immature, weak, and horrible. (yes, all at once)

It's like being rejected. Cause that's what I am. A reject. I'm not retarded. I'm just a reject. Something made out of the mold in a place where I have no use.

This is doing nothing to help me, and most likely anything you say will do nothing to help either.
  • Current Music
    "Stand By Your Side" by Celine Dion