February 22nd, 2005

Composed Me

Waking dream, then bathroom

I just had one of those rather interesting dreams.

In it, I was suddenly a teacher, as if I didn't rememeber anything before I was in that teacher's spot, how I got there, or even anything about the day before(s) (you get my meaning, right?). I wasn't just an ordinary teacher, but a college professor. There were some other professors there as well, like this english teacher played by Robin Williams (I think that's his name. Dead Poets Society) (I'm also assuming he was a English teacher. He certainly was spouting off things often enough, even if there weren't any students around)

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Composed Me

'Well Of Fortune' Possibly Dried

Well, it seems my well of job fortune my have dried up.

The person who is currently bike assembler didn't transfer after all. (Sounds like why the garden center called) The real problem is, while they were 'considering' me, the other two backed off and, as far as garden is concerned I know this is true, went for other people. Right now, provided they didn't as well, 3rd shift may be my only hope.

Sucks how opportunities dry up when you don't/can't take them right away.

Oh well. That just means I'm still jobless. Nothing new there.

Seriously, I'm fine. Means I made that list prematurely, and I'm still a begger, but I'm not going to kill myself over it. I haven't felt this tranquil in a long time; something you could say I lost hold of over the years and let it get away from myself.

*goes back to trying to get warm and finding something to do* *utterly bored*
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South Park Self, Disappointed


I figured I might as well write this while I have it on the brain.

Despite everything, which is a lot, I'm not depressed. I'm not happy about it, but I'm not depressed. I'm somewhere around 'bleh' today.

So, Wal-Mart hasn't called. "All because miss man decided to take her little drag show on the road" (That runs rather frequently through my head.) I can't really blame Anne, as she was just doing her job looking for a replacement. Problem is, while she was just doing her job I lost two other job opportunities. I know it won't bother her because it wasn't her that was looking for a job in the first place. Why should it phase her, my job search isn't her problem.

But anyway, I'm bored out of my skull right now. I don't feel like doing anything, and I mean that quite literally. Lately all I want to do is trivial things... now if I could name any trivial things, I'd list some for you here, however I can't think of anything. The only thing that comes to me is 'change screen saver' or 'open email repeatidly hoping someone sent me something'

The one thing that's bothering me right now is if someone reminds me that I have obligations and haven't been doing them.

I don't feel like writing this anymore. The End.
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Tombo - Disappointed

Strangling > Coding

It's kind of hard to code when all you can think about is strangling something. Don't worry, there's nothing around here that will satisfactorily strangle. Cats and dogs don't provide enough resistance, and humans are just too messy.
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Distressed, Tombo - Distressed

There's a conspiricy....

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Everything is conspiring to keep me from doing anything I actually feel like doing. I just tried to play Super Mario RPG (I'm making typos every other word, geez) on Le's laptop and it stops two seconds in. I even tried it with ZSnes (as compared to Snes9x). It does this with virtually everything, especially animations in the browser and the little popup notifications in Firefox and Thunderbird. I think it might have something to do with a corrupt DirectX or some of the codec packs installed

I can't seem to get anything done any more. I'm sure you're all tired of hearing me talk about this so I'll just shut up and spare you the waste of time and reading.
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    "Superman" by Five For Fighting