April 7th, 2007

Snapdragon Drooping

Bullet Point Update; too small of thoughts for details

  • It seems I no longer know the definition of "productive".
  • There is a counter lined with dishes that need washed.
  • The dishwasher is leaving a very thick film on the dishes.
  • In a matter of two days a very large crack (in three different directions) has formed on my car's windshield.
  • I am managing to pay my bills on time, albeit barely.
    • At least it's not because I don't have the money, though.
  • I've begun thinking that I would fly someone in just to have some company.
    • I already know who I would want to fly here, too.
      • I also know it's not that easy.
  • I'm 97% sure one of my co-workers knows about me now.
Ok, that's enough for now. I can't think of what else I want to say right now anyway.
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Linux, MySQL, LAMP, PHP, Apache

The Quivering Beast of Change; s/Gaim/Pidgin/

There is a beast inside of me, and it quivers with fear.

Many people who know me, and most who don't, see me go through so many changes and wonder how I do it so easily. I let go of attachments and just move from one thing to the next. At least that's how my sister sees it.

The reality of it, though, is that sometimes I do quiver at the thought of change. I can get comfortable with something like it is and then when it changes I go through a moment of panic and even confusion.

And then I wonder why. I ask myself why I am reacting this way, why it matters, and what does it really mean or affect. Answering those questions often leaves me in a place where I can handle the change. The end result may still be unknown, but it gives me closure of the present to deal with the future.

The reason I bring this up is that Gaim is changing its name to Pidgin (Apparently some legal dispute with AOL over their name and the similarity to AIM). The thing that really struck a cord with me, though, is that in the process they're going to switch revision control systems from Subversion to Monotone. This is particularly a sore spot because I would like to convince my work to switch from CVS to SVN, and yet here are these people who I've followed for years (and the lead developer is hot) moving away from SVN.
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