November 4th, 2013

Ctrl+Alt+Del - Scott & Ted

After nearly two months: Resetting near to zero

It's been almost two months since I've last posted. Wow, that's a really long time to go without talking about myself. Some things have changed and some things have stayed the same.

I'm at a PHP User Group at the moment and overhearing some of the conversations makes me cringe. Most conversations I overhear make me cringe, but it's very alarming to hear people talk about things I know very well. "Knowing what you don't know" as one person put it, strangely (especially given his earlier conversation topics).

My personal life has reset back to near zero-sum again. I've been through a couple of relationships in the last few months and both have ended for various reasons. In the process I've learned what I need out of a relationship and what things I can't compromise on. Some would have people go "duh" while others would get a "huh". I've had enough relationship drama for the moment and am going to just enjoy being single for a while.

Things at the office have been semi-demanding, but ultimately it's just like being pulled in many directions at once with no real focus. I don't see myself renewing the contract once it is up unless things start reforming a lot between now and then, but that's not set in stone yet. The real stress point has been freelance work with multiple projects demanding time around the same time, to the point where I come home, spend an hour or so to myself (not including eating dinner), and then spending several hours on more work. Thankfully those have or are wrapping up so I'll be spending a few weeks recuperating.

I still don't know what I want to do with the next few years of my life but my goal is to work on figuring it out by the time this work contract is up in a few months. For a while during one relationship I was starting to entertain (or simply not rule out) the idea of moving to Vancouver, but I think that's out of the picture now. It's more expensive to live in Vancouver than Seattle, and Seattle is already more expensive than I'm comfortable with. I do know that I'm not happy at my current place and location in Seattle so I'll likely be moving to a neighboring area.
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