January 5th, 2014

Baby Chicken

Time for a change: Move, career, goals, purpose

There are many things in life that I am undecided about. Most of them are by choice or by default, like choosing what type of cutting tool to use in surgery. I don't know enough about the subject to make an informed decision and so I choose to be undecided by default. I could educate myself on surgery practices and then I could choose which tool is right for the job, but how likely am I to need that knowledge or am I to practice it? Very unlikely, and so I leave the subject alone.

The things that I'm not undecided about are germane to what I do often and the things I've studied up on. Best programming practices, advantages and disadvantages of different methods, etc. These are things I have informed myself on and choose to have an opinion on one way or another. It's my bread and butter.

There are some things in life that I am undecided about which I would rather not be; I want answers. Unfortunately these are, more often than not, things where there is no one right answer or the right answer can change and that other people can't answer for me. Personal matters, like what my purpose in life is, what I should do next, where I should live next, what I want out of a relationship, and so forth.

These questions have plagued me lately and I want answers. Again unfortunately, I have none. All I know is that it's time for change and it's time to start looking for new answers. My goal at this juncture is to start looking at housing situations in the surrounding area and other parts of the country and begin planning to move. I want to be moved out of here before my two year mark at this location. I don't know where to find any other answers right now but I'll be on the look out for that "ah ha!" moment that fills in the blanks again.
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