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The Autobiography of Russell
Life from a different perspective
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So Stephen once said...
So Stephen once said, "I'm gay. You're Gaaaaaaaaaaay."

He went on to further explain, "When you're around straight guys you flirt with them."

Well, I'm still doing it. Am I really so insecure with who I am? It seems so.

...

Oh yes, those apologies.

One goes out to damnitnicole and her friend who I promised to make modifications to his livejournal style. If you would still like me to do them let me know and I will do them right now. If not, I'm sorry I conked out on ya'll.

A second one goes out to scixual and the PDI comic for being such a distracted and slow webmaster. I... dunno. I owe you a lot more than I've been giving, and you deserve to get all of it, not just what you've been seeing. I don't know what's going on with me that keeps me from performing my best. I know you tell me I do great work, and I appreciate that, but I know I could be doing so much more and so much better.

Lastly, I apologise to tearysky for not being the boyfriend he wants me to be. I never have been overly emotional in my daily affairs, nor decision oriented, and I'm letting him down with how unattached I'm being to everything. I can't say I regret being unemotional and unattached to things, because watching other people get swept away in life isn't something I wish I were doing, but it's still no excuse.

...

I guess I just need to find my center again, and focus on the things that really matter.

.... Umm, what are those? What really matters? o.O

Current Mood: guilty guilty
Current Music: Soundscapes

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scixual From: scixual Date: November 13th, 2004 02:41 pm (UTC) (Link)
I got it.

If there's anything I can do to support you, let me know.
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