He went on to further explain, "When you're around straight guys you flirt with them."
Well, I'm still doing it. Am I really so insecure with who I am? It seems so.
Oh yes, those apologies.
One goes out to damnitnicole and her friend who I promised to make modifications to his livejournal style. If you would still like me to do them let me know and I will do them right now. If not, I'm sorry I conked out on ya'll.
A second one goes out to scixual and the PDI comic for being such a distracted and slow webmaster. I... dunno. I owe you a lot more than I've been giving, and you deserve to get all of it, not just what you've been seeing. I don't know what's going on with me that keeps me from performing my best. I know you tell me I do great work, and I appreciate that, but I know I could be doing so much more and so much better.
Lastly, I apologise to tearysky for not being the boyfriend he wants me to be. I never have been overly emotional in my daily affairs, nor decision oriented, and I'm letting him down with how unattached I'm being to everything. I can't say I regret being unemotional and unattached to things, because watching other people get swept away in life isn't something I wish I were doing, but it's still no excuse.
I guess I just need to find my center again, and focus on the things that really matter.
.... Umm, what are those? What really matters? o.O