Russell (zimzat) wrote,

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This is my journal and I'm going to rant. It may also be a public forum but it's still my journal and I'm going to write in it like such. If you don't like what I write or think, too bad. I still have the right to free speech and I'm using it.

I'm bored. I'm tired. I'm frustrated (x2+). Not a good combination.

I need a change, an accomplishment, a breakthrough, someone to talk to. Unconditionally.

I'm not like you people. I don't want to hang out at a bar. I don't want to drink. I don't want to go dancing. I don't want to be left alone all the time. I don't want just any near-minimum wage job. I don't want to sit behind a school desk for four more years.

I want to do something I'm good at and I'll be appreciated for doing, by at least one person who knows what I'm doing. I want to play on my computer and get my hands dirty learning and creating new things. I want to live comfortably without having people trying to send me on guilt trips.

And people say I don't know what I want or don't want. To only do something when you want to do it is selfish, and to say you won't do something if you don't actively want to do it is bull.

I feel like being depressed. I pretty much am depressed.

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