Russell (zimzat) wrote,

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Stream of Consciousness Release

I keep forgetting that not everyone is as convulsed as me.

Ok, quite honestly, that's not how it is or looks. It's something a bit more hypocritical and down-right snob-nosed. I don't want to understand why people do what they do but I can see it all too clearly.

I keep forgetting that not everyone is as mature, logical, or advanced as I am.

I know that makes me look conceited, but I can only kid myself so long to think people can change. People can't change. It takes months and years to form new habits and even longer to let go of old ones. To think that someone will stop being who they are is ... unreasonable. I am unreasonable in my expectations. Very high and idealistic expectations, but nothing this world can handle.

I think the entire reason I can't get along with the rest of the world is because of this. I expect people to act with a certain sense of dignity and sensibility, but to most people it's all the pomp and superfluous activities and/or that everything is about them. I expect people to use their brain, but most people don't think until after they're already made an outcry of helplessness or ...

*sigh* Sometimes I wish I wasn't of this world. Sometimes I wish I wasn't at all. But then I remember this is the only world I have.

PS: This isn't a cry for help or a suicide note. I just need to get some thoughts out of my head and this is the only place I have to put them. You're welcome to comment if you want but I may not feel like talking about it.

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