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The Autobiography of Russell
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zimzat
zimzat
A bad start back
Having this as my first actual post after being gone for nearly five days is kind of pathetic, but right now it feels appropriate for many reasons.

I die a little more inside each day.

I hung out with so many different people this weekend that make me feel stupid or inadequate that it's not funny.

Last night I remarked to my sister how everyone I met while out this weekend didn't smoke, yet everyone I've met around here smokes. She replied, "It's a sign; don't date."

LiveJournal is was just borked. It's a sign.

My sister is obsessed with this idea that I have had a crush on one of her close female (black, which she thinks would make a "great" girl for me) friends from way back when. At least ten years ago. She has brought it up virtually every time I mention a guy.

She's getting just a little annoying with that, and the snide sad comments about "searching for what you'll never find [there]"

I appear to have cut myself short financially, and underestimated how much getting my car registered would cost. I'm paid up on cell phone and car insurance this month, and have enough for next month, but not if I have to pay taxes on the car registration and especially not the next month. It looks like I'm going to have to get a part time job somewhere. Ten or twenty hours a week should cover it, I think.

Boys are plotting to move away. It's not a fun thought. Cause I know if I got involved I'd move with them in a heart beat. But that's a completely premature point at this time, cause none are interested in me nor I in them anywhere near that much.

While in Michigan, the roommate asked what kind of guys I was into. I couldn't really answer that at the time. I can give a few things, but for the most part it's easier to say what kind of guys I'm not into. I prefer short hair but medium is ok. Long hair or bald is a turn off. So are the old and mostly grayed guys. A beard / goatee is ok if it's kept trimmed. Definitely not severely overweight (under 30 BMI is mostly tolerable and under 25 is preferable). A few tattoos are acceptable. I would would prefer someone that doesn't smoke or drink, but moderate drinking and smoking (outdoors only please) are within reason.

Current Mood: depressed depressed
Current Music: "Break Me Shake Me" by Savage Garden

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halogencycle From: halogencycle Date: October 4th, 2006 08:56 am (UTC) (Link)
Sometimes I am asked what makes a guy attractive to me, and my answer is kinda "I know it when I see it."
irish_n_sac From: irish_n_sac Date: October 4th, 2006 02:04 pm (UTC) (Link)
I agree long hair/ bald, smoker, Beards are out for me.. 30 BMI->
short hair, 25-> bmi blue/green eyes... HOT
"searching for what you'll never find [there]"
Is your sis ok with you being gay?
zimzat From: zimzat Date: October 4th, 2006 05:07 pm (UTC) (Link)
Despite as much as she claims to be "ok" with it, I'm going to have to say no considering how many negative and condescending remarks she has made and keeps making about it.
irish_n_sac From: irish_n_sac Date: October 4th, 2006 06:10 pm (UTC) (Link)

Yeah I was thinking with a statement like that she may not be as comfortable..

But hey it's what makes you happy and what your comfortable with that really counts... :o)
From: technotoddyboi Date: October 4th, 2006 09:01 pm (UTC) (Link)
You can also save money by not taking so many road trips to meet people in other states. That will eat your money alive!
zimzat From: zimzat Date: October 4th, 2006 09:09 pm (UTC) (Link)
I spent less than a hundred dollars on gas, fifty on the theme park ticket, and another thirty to forty on miscellaneous things. In total, less than two-hundred dollars on the entire road trip.

What really ate into my funds was the three hundred dollar repair bill on the car.
zimzat From: zimzat Date: October 4th, 2006 09:11 pm (UTC) (Link)
I've only taken one road trip, by the way. I'll probably be looking into another one in a couple of months after I get paid again.

I left with a full tank, filled up once after I left Cincinnati, once after I left Kalamazoo, and once after I got back.
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