Russell (zimzat) wrote,

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A little more personal...

I'm sure some of you probably just want to know what's going on in my personal life (not). Well, nothing really.

I was supposed to have a boy over tonight but it seems that this boy can't keep out of trouble with his parents and had his cell phone taken away, so unless he gets in touch with me some other way then I don't see that happening. But whatever, I was reluctant about seeing him anyway, since I know he's going to want to get physical and right now, as much as I would want to, I'm uneasy about getting close to someone while I have this cold (The plus side of that, though, is that it's going away now. A few more days and I'll be as good as new, thankfully).

There haven't been any new guys lately (even the one above is a relatively old one). One of my co-workers says he has the "perfect" match for me, and another one has offered to hook me up with one of his wife's friends. Yet another of my co-workers may or may not be being more friendly to me than he was, but I honestly can't tell. I've even started to give up hope on the guy from Hastings. I mean, I still like him and any time I see him there's this raise in hopes, but I've stopped trying to seek him out only to end up just tormenting myself.

As for work, I've specifically told two people I'm gay (both of which said they had no idea, nor do they really care/mind that I am), one already knew previously from online, and two may or may not know from gossip. There are still several which, unless they've heard gossip from the others, don't know. Ya know, despite the fact that it doesn't make that big of a deal, I still feel more at ease around those that already know and worried around those that don't. If I don't really care about coming out and know it's not that big of a deal then why does it worry me... meh. *shrug*

There is also a big plan in the works, but I'd rather not spill it just yet. I want it to be a surprise if it does happen and not a mockery if it doesn't.
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