Russell (zimzat) wrote,

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Facing the Music: I'm just me, nothing more or less, and not "that"

It's time to face the music and admit a few things.

First, I'm not pretty. I can't pretend to be cute, geeky, hot, fashionable, hip, or any of that. The best that can be said about me are basic facts like 'male', 'white', 'pale', and 'awkward'. Average height, average build, just average. Maybe a little worse for wear in the physical appearance charts, but I'm no bear, twink, or anything between. I can accept that some people find me attractive, but they're very few and very far between. You don't need to pretend otherwise for my sake.

Second, I'm not a social butterfly and I don't want to be one. It would be safer to say that I'm a social chameleon: I blend into the background and can get along with, on the surface, a number of different types of people. I'm a fairly generic person and don't have any extreme interests. I like a number of things, but I'm no expert or raving fan of anything. I'm strongly opinionated about specific aspects of programming, but that's really it.

Overall I'm okay with it. I don't need to be pretty, sought after, or approved. I would like to be noticed from time to time. My philosophy is largely "To each their own" and "Treat others as they want to be treated". I'm probably the most non-judgmental person you'll ever meet when it comes to people's personal lives. Furry? Okay. Nerd? Gotcha. Hipster? Whatever floats your boat. Gamer? *nods* Artist? Cool. Actor? Neat. Into BDSM? Sounds interesting (just not really for me, thanks). etc etc etc

I've got a few friends, a few acquaintances, and a few people to play games with. Some of them aren't local, but I'll take what I can get. I'm thankful for what I have and I'm happy to be just me.

So what does that mean for the future? Probably nothing specific; just business as usual.
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