Russell (zimzat) wrote,

An almost idealistic change of scenery

I haven't posted in far too long. *looks at calendar, performs calculation* Umm, 65 days since my last public entry. Wow.

In the last two months I moved out of my place in Washington and am currently staying with a friend in the far suburbs of Chicago. I wanted to move away from Seattle, and that did happen, though not quite in the circumstances or to where I did.

I started looking for a new job by putting my resume out there and looking at job listings on various sites. Most of the responses and listings were for tangent or unrelated positions, from recruiters trying to find a warm body to fill a quota, or for companies I have no interest in associating with (like 'we unscrupulously slurp and sell your data to the highest bidder').

Then I went into a funk for a while, no longer caring what happened after I needed to be out of my current place at the end of November. A couple of weeks passed like this where I existed in a state of apathy before I got sick with a very upset stomach (though not quite to the point of throwing up). The feeling of pain centered me again and made me realize that regardless of what else happened after November I wasn't ready to die and if not then I needed to figure out what to live for.

I went back on the hunt for a job or freelance contracts, but unfortunately the Thanksgiving holiday intervened and put a delay to contacts and payments. I didn't have the money to extend my stay at my current place even if I wanted to, and so backup plans were necessary. Thus, the plans to stay with a friend in Seattle for a few days before catching a one-way plane to Chicago.

One of the interesting things about being where I am now is that it feels almost idealistic. As I sit here in the Starbucks cafe of the nearby Target I can watch people come and go from the store. I see couples, parent(s) and children, singles, friends, teens, and all sorts coming and going. Most of them don't look close to perfect in one sense or another, but most look like they're content or carrying on. I can almost forget about all the problems in the world, and with myself, while sitting here. Almost.

I've been here for three weeks now. It's nice, but I don't see myself staying here for longer than I have to. I'm ready to set back out on my own again. I want a job, I want my own social activities, I want warmer climate, and I might even want a car again.

After the new year I'll be scouring the job listings again and sending my resume to companies that look intriguing. I don't have a specific area to target, though there are a few I'm generally avoiding for cost or climate reasons (e.g. anywhere in California for the cost) though some place like Boston, which I've heard the job culture could be very inclined toward what I'm looking for, is still a possibility. I'm also going to put some effort toward identifying gaming companies that might have use of my abilities.

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