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The Autobiography of Russell
Life from a different perspective
zimzat
zimzat
Epiphany
I think I've realized why I'm so wishy-washy. I don't have anywhere or anyone to anchor my feelings on so I get mixed up rather easily in everyone, even the straight guys with girlfriends. (Sorry Luke, Jason, etc. You all know who you are and if you don't, probably for the best)

I'm tempted to retract myself from society and live in a shell again, but I know that won't do me any good. I wish I had someone I could take comfort in, but females won't do and all the guys I know would freak if I tried to in them. (and I don't mean in a mainly sexual way either)

Well then, another day tomorrow, another class to sit through. At least I'll have Jason in the evening class to talk to on the way home. He's pretty good at dealing with me.

*waves* later, to whoever reads this. *thinks no one does*

Current Mood: crushed crushed
Current Music: "Don't Turn Off The Lights" by Enrique Iglesias

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zimzat From: zimzat Date: October 29th, 2003 06:57 am (UTC) (Link)
I think people don't read it cause they act as if they didn't read it, for the few that I know in "real life" that read it and otherwise as well. I wonder if anyone would react if I proposed suicide on here... heh

But yeah, I think I have maybe four readers at the moment, but it feels more like zero.

Thanks for the comment though ^_^ I know I have at least one reader now.
ellixis From: ellixis Date: October 29th, 2003 10:03 am (UTC) (Link)
Why won't females do?

Sometimes the best confidant is one of the opposite sex, because they understand differently, which means another perspective.
zimzat From: zimzat Date: October 29th, 2003 11:46 am (UTC) (Link)
Don't get me wrong, females can be great confidants, but what I'm looking for is physical comfort, not just mental. :-\

I would say more, but it just keeps coming out as a jumbled blurb.
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